ABOUT ME

I was born to a Roman Catholic family. I was known as a rebel and was expelled from Catholic school at fourteen. I could not adapt to the abuse at that school. I was arrested at nineteen for being a thief and placed on probation. I turned inward around this time. I was suffering from an acne condition which made me aware of my body and the bodies of others. I was not happy. I worked at different jobs that did not satisfy my budding inner life. I traveled down South several times trying to find myself. I was in the process of quitting smoking and drinking. I used my musical heroes who were ceasing their addictions through sports as examples. I was good at sports and took up running as a strategy to quit my addictions. In 1980 at the age of twenty-seven, I enrolled in a local college. I was now in an interesting environment. I was curious about everything. I majored in Speech and Psychology.

Many people told me that I was funny. I was able to make people laugh about unusual subjects. In the summers of 1981 and 82, while still a college student, I traveled to Minneapolis and pursued the art of stand-up comedy. During these summers, I would write comedy, run twenty-five miles a week, and perform comedy at night. I was also a juggler. I took up Hatha Yoga while studying nutrition. My running, juggling, yoga, writing, performing, studying, and contemplation became my spiritual life. I always kept the direct quotes of Jesus in my head especially “Love your neighbor as yourself.”  I was busy. I was still finding myself. I interacted with the local up-and-coming comedians. I was making audiences laugh shortly after I started. I was also performing comedy in other cities. I was planning on being a professional comedian. I loved what I was doing. I lived and breathed comedy. I consciously made everything I thought about and did relate to my act. I was disciplined. I was devoted. I was obsessed. I studied comedy masters.  I was not in it for the money. My heart was open to make people laugh so they would be happy. I pushed myself to understand the psychology of my audiences to make them laugh. I knew they were like me. I was a psychology minor reading auxiliary psychology books on the side. I was developing my character in different ways. I was discovering myself and others simultaneously through public speaking.

Catholicism conditioned me to be aware of my conscience. I had to make people laugh, and I naturally reasoned that the only way I could see to do it was to be brutally honest with myself. I was continually examining myself, being as honest with myself as I could while, weeding out delusional thinking. My constant honesty was making me highly intuitive. My honesty naturally tuned me into how others were lying and creating illusions. I noticed that most people were not as honest as me. I was continually seeing through worldly illusions. My honest conscience was on alert. I eventually stopped my habit of automatic lying. I became as honest as I could with myself and others. I  realized that I was offending others with my lies. Honesty became my way of life. Honesty led me to accept my body and looks. I realized that others were going through the same process of self-acceptance while realizing themselves.

One day in 1983, I was alone at my parent’s house. I took a hit off a joint. I was using cannabis in moderation. All of a sudden, as if a light was switched on, I experienced a massive spontaneous permanent kundalini awakening. It was a compound mystical experience comprising of a vision, a locution, and firelite emanating from my body. I realized the essence of myself and everyone simultaneously. I realized in myself and everyone, the Image and Likeness of God that Sisters taught us about in school. Hinduism calls the essence Atman. My love of comedy coupled with the acceptance of my body and looks along with my intense desire to understand the psychology of my audience opened me up to what was in front of my face, our faces, all along. I manifested the presence of mind for discerning the core of the fifth dimension, our unseen nature, the same essence of everyone. I call the same essence the same Self in our bodies. I merged in union with everyone. We are not separate from each other, i.e., The same essence in our different bodies. The more you see yourself in others, the closer you are to removing the veil. The development of your character is what readies you for interpersonal psychological awareness. This clear-sighted self-other realization told me that we have this important part of our nature obscured by incorrect conditioning. Complete honesty, which is never being dishonest, is the long-lost missing link to higher enlightenment. Universal Consciousness or Cosmic Consciousness manifests through character development. We possess the capacity for this expanded awareness. Our natural condition has us seeing, knowing, and sensing what is divine in each other and what is not.  Expanded interpersonal psychological awareness manifests through the honesty of a pure heart. A person with a pure heart is ever mindful about how they can help others. We are presently awakening to our true nature. I recommend readers attempt to go at least three months without engesting any habit-forming substances as an experiment for realizing the inner life.

Due to what happened to me, I changed my plans and moved in with my best friend and her son. We lived together for many years. I hid out in college, going on and off for thirteen years. I eventually received an M.A. in Speech/Rhetoric along with extra credits. I read one book after another to realize what happened to me. I lived in Wisconsin. It was extremely difficult to adjust to this highly enlightened condition. I could read people and knew when they were trying to deceive me. I was ahead of my time. No one knew what I was trying to tell them. I was a fish out of water. I suffered from abuse, and this is our natural awakened condition. Fortunately, I received an inheritance. I reclused for years working privately to help humanity. Since the world is awakening, I am here to help.